Bienvenidos from Guatemala! I apologize for the giant size of this blog and the lack of pictures. There is lots to write about, and I promise that I will be sending pictures soon. Since there have been so many things going on I´m going to try to break it down by days since I last wrote. For those of you who don´t have a whole lot of time you can read a day at a time and make it last longer :).

JANUARY 15: I am beginning to learn the Rosary in Spanish fairly well. Many afternoons when I get home from class the whole family is in the common room just outside my bedroom doing the Rosary. It does give me time to write. Being in the Peace Corps is a little bit like being in a tame warp. Most of the time I feel like I have so much time on my hands, but when it gets to the end of the day I look back and it has gone so quickly. An average day so far has been waking up at 5 when the buses start running and enjoying the warmth of my bed until 6 when I get up to take a shower. I go into the kitchen to talk to Doña Eva and eat my breakfast around 6:30, and then pack my bag for the day and head out for class, training or work between 7 and 8. If we are close enough I came home for an hour to have lunch and then it´s back for four more hours of class, training, or work. I get back about an hour before dinner and work on something in my room while the family is in the common room. I gets dark around 6 and dinner is usually at 7, so that´s the end of the day for me. I am happy to go to bed early because I know that tomorrow will always be a busy day.

JANUARY 16: Today was, overall, a good day. My shower this morning was pretty cold, which was a bit of a let down after the other night´s hot shower. I was early for Spanish class which gave me a chance to pal around with Kelly, the other female volunteer in my group. We are working on the preterit/imperfect which is still a bit difficult for me. Lunch was quick and then the whole group was off to the municipality in San Lucas Milpas Altas to meet with Don Roberto, the director of the park where we are working. We interviewed him about the attributes and pitfalls of the park, it was fun and he is very willing to work with us, but all we really learned is that he doesn´t really see the park as having any pitfalls. That may be a little interesting. He also invited us back to San Lucas for their patron saint day in October. After the interview the four of us stopped at a little cantina so the boys could have a beer. It was great to sit and get to know my group better and relax a little.

JANUARY 17: Today in Spanish class we watched a movie called Voces Inocentes about the war in El Salvador during the 80s. It was one of the saddest movies I have ever seen. I was shocked that something like that was going on while I was growing up, and I don´t remember hearing anything about it. I guess I was busy being a kid, and it certainly made me realize how grateful I am for the childhood that I had. After the movie we hiked up to the park (which is a 20 minute hike up a forty or fifty degree incline). This time we actually got to walk around the trails in the park, and it is more amazing than I imagined! There are rope bridges and tree swings that swing out over cliffs. Of course, we all had to try those out. Again, I will be sending plenty of pictures soon. I really don´t even have the words to describe what an adventure this park is. When we got back to San Bartolomè Doña Eva brought me over to her sister-in-law´s house to make real tortillas over a fire. I love spending time with the women here.

JANUARY 18: I got to sleep in a little today since mass doesn´t start until 9. However, sleeping in here really just means staying in my nice warm bed since only the dead can sleep through the busses honking their horns down the street :). After mass was the most fun I have had since I have been here (with the possible exception of swinging over cliffs yesterday). Doña Eva and her sister-in-law (a different one) Doña Marzia (who lives next door) took me to see the ruins of San Fransico cathedral in Antigua, and then we went to the market in San Felipe which is an aldea outside of Antigua. Doña Eva bought me this amazing woven purse that I haven´t put down since, and then we had atols (which are any thick hot drink and very popular here) in the open market. Doña Marzia´s daughter Christina came with us and Christina´s three sons who are 11, 9, and 6. The boys were a ton of fun to joke and run around with. My atol was arroz con leche, which is a lot like a runny rice pudding and reminds me a lot of home. Doña Eva also invited me to help with dinner when we got home, which is a first. I´m starting to really feel like a part of the family.

JANUARY 19: Today was exhausting. It was my third big day in a row. After having so many things to do I keep thinking that the next day must be boring, but it never is. Eventually it will sink in that every day is an adventure here. Toady's big trip was to Guatemala City which is the capital of Guatemala. With the exception of group trips, specialized medical needs, lab tests, and trips to the embassy it is off limits to Peace Corps trainees and volunteers. To be completely honest, I don´t really mind. The city can be best described as any large American city with subtitles. On the upside, I did get another fantastic cup of coffee (which always makes my day) and a book in Spanish. I am sure it will take me forever to read, but it will help with my Spanish. Not to mention that the longer it lasts the better because books are a little hard to come by here.

JANUARY 20: I´m sure that today was a big day for everyone. I hope that you all had a chance to watch the inauguration, so I won´t bother filling you in on that. They rearranged our class schedule so that the whole group was able to watch Obama´s speech at the Peace Corps headquarters. What an amazing place to be for such an astounding event!

JANUARY 21: Today was Doña Rosa´s birthday. Doña Rosa is Kelly´s host mom, and she is an amazingly sweet lady. She made lunch for some of the neighbors, our group of four Peace Corps volunteers and our teacher. It was a beautiful day out, and after lunch Kelly, Enrique (one of the neighbor boys), and I played with the poi that I brought. Kelly and I then headed to the Internet with every intention of working, only to be sidetracked by a game of basketball that turned into an afternoon of basketball. Sadly, all good things must come to an end and (exhausted) I headed home for dinner. As we were finishing dinner, someone came to the door asking for Doña Eva who is a type of community nurse. I haven´t quite figured out what she does or what organization she is working with, but we have a family health organization sign outside our door, and people frequently come to the house for shots or medical questions. On this occasion she needed to leave the house and asked me if I wanted to come with her. We ended up riding in someones pickup further out in San Bartolomé than I have ever been to a small house. The room we entered was almost entirely occupied by a bed, and in the bed was a woman almost lost in blankets. She was the same woman about whom the municipality had been making announcements all day. She is in need of surgery and since the family did not have the money to pay for it the municipal building made an announcement over the loud speaker asking people to donate at the office until the need was met. I can´t yet understand or explain all the feelings that I encountered being in that room. There is an amazing sense of community and family here that is, at times, overwhelming.

JANUARY 22: Phew, after yesterday this is short. We had technical training this morning and met our mentor who is a current volunteer at a sight that does volcano tours. This afternoon was Spanish class as usual, except that we convinced Jesse to give us a brief ukulele performance before we all went our separate ways.

Briefly, I want to also let you all know that I know that these e-mails are getting a bit long. In the interest of saving everyone´s inbox, I am thinking of moving all future e-mails to a protected blog. In other words, instead of e-mailing everyone I will simply post to a website that I will grant access to. If really important or awesome things come up I will certainly still sent out e-mails. I will also be able to post pictures to the blog. I will let you know as soon as I get it set up.

Vaya bien,
Morgan
 
Bienveniedos! I found an internet cafe in San Bartolome where I am working, so I will be able to send e-mails more often, but this keyboard is pretty sticky and tricky so it is currently taking me a long time to type. This has been a wonderful week, and the more time that I spend here the more I know that this is where I am supposed to be. Earlier this week my group was introduced to Senderos de Alux, the park where we will be working. I haven't had a chance to take picture of it yet, but it is a beautiful forest with a cliff overlooking dowtown Guatemala city. The whole project i absolutely breathtaking. I am a little sad that it is my training project and I will only be there for the first few months. After that it is most likely off to the backwaters of Guatemala. However, I am sure that I will be just in love with whatever part of the country I end up in. The first few days with my host family were a little rough as my host family is very reserved and my Spanish is currently less than stellar (but improving rapidly). There were a few days that saw a loss of apetite and an increase in sleep, but yesterday was absolutely amazing and marked a new chapter with my family. First, when the group had finished with our daily 4-5 hours of Spanish class we decided to take the afternoon off and take a bus into Antigua (the Gringo city). I wasn´t terribly impressed with the city itself, but it was a good chance to see what it was like, get to know my coworkers a little better, and blow off some steam. San Bartolome is fairly small and as an American woman there are always people watching to see what you are doing. We didn´t actually act any different in Antigua, but not having to worry about it for a little while was a relief. Also, knowing that we could navigate the busses by ourselves was empowering. Maybe best of all, I got an amazing cup of coffee while in the city. In San Bartolo if I have coffee with breakfast it is instant coffee, and any milk is powdered milk. When I got home the trip to Antigua provided plenty of conversation that was within the limits of my vocabulary. With so much class it is easy to run out of conversation material fairly quickly. Another downfall is that as trainees we are hand fed, and my family is very careful not to ask much of me. I occationally have to sneek in to do the dishes or I am scolded off. However, last night after dinner Doña Eva began tortillando (making tortillas, litterally torilla-ing), and I expressed an interest. I am anxious to learn local trades like making tortillas and weaving. Not only did she teach me to shape a mean tortilla, we made chuchos together. Chuchos are like small tomalles. You flatten a round of dough (like you are making a tortilla) and place a cube of chicken in the middle (bones included, apparently people like to chew on them). Over the chicken you spread some tomato sauce and then close the dough. That is placed in a corn husk and covered with a little more tomato sauce. Then the corn husk is folded closed and tied with a string of corn husk. Chuchos may be my new favorite lunch! Incidentally, it also happens to be the word for the stray dogs that are so prevalent here. After that I was in need of a shower. As you might have guessed, a shower here is an adventure. We are fortunate to be in a moderately sized city with running water (no bucket baths for us), but there are VERY few places in the country where there is hot water. Instead showers are equipped with ´calentadores´ which are electrical heaters attached between the pipe and the shower head. At first, it looks like one would have to be crazy or suicidal since it is usually a mass of water pipes and electrical wiring, but I am told that they are very safe, and I have yet to have a shock. Since the calentador can only heat so much water at a time, the trick is to turn the water down until it is warm enough to shower (the water doesn´t really get hot here, it just gets less cold). Days when a shower fogs up the mirror are good days. Last night I was actually able to turn the water down low enough to get a HOT shower! I am getting to be a fairly heavy sleeper. My bedroom shares a wall with an evangelical church (here you are either evangelical or Catholic... I've opted for Catholic), and on the nights that I go to bed before 9 (which is all of them) I fall asleep to loud and slightly off-key Spanish Christian rock. It is also common practice here to set off fire crackers outside someones door on their birthday, and it´s usually done around 5 in the morning. I woke up in a cold sweat the first couple of times, now it just makes me smile. I may have to move in next to a fire station when I get back to the states ;). Well, that´s about it. I do want to say that reading over what I´ve written I have chosen not to change anything, but there are things that could be taken negatively. Please know that I adore each and every one of these experiences, and I wouldn´t change a thing! I am very fond of all of the people here, and they are bending over backwards to make me comfortble. Each of the challenges I have mentioned are things that I think about and smile. I hope that they will do the same for you. Vaya bien, Morgan
 
I really wish that I had the time to e-mail each of you individually, but the computers at the Peace Corps headquarters are in high demand. I'll try to include enough detail to satisfy your curiosty while staying breif enough to bring any of the waiting voluteers to tears. If you can think of anyone that I have missed on the mailing list, please forward this to them and send me a quick e-mail so I know to include them in the future. Our first day here was really a blur. We checked out of our hotel in Washington DC at 1:30 in the morning on Wednesday and spent the first part of the flying and waiting in airports. It was a good chance to get to know the rest of the (tierd) volunteers. Getting into Guatemala was much easier than I had expected. We gave all of our forms to one of the individuals from the Peace Corps office and passed through customs without pause. We loaded our luggage into vans and hopped on a bus to Santa Lucia Milpas Altas where the Peace Corps Headquarters is located. It is a beautiful compound, and very secure. We spent the night in pairs with host families. I am with another girl in the Community Tourism group, and I could not have asked for a better family for my first few days in Guatemala. They have two children; an eight year old girl and a three year old boy. Their home is beautiful and cozy. I'm sleeping in a lovely bed, and there is a bathroom with a shower attached to the room. The water isn't always reliable, and the showers are usually luke warm, but I am in love with Guatemala already. Yesterday was filled with lots of rules and regulations. In between all of that we had interviews in Spanish. So far, that has been the most nerve-wracking part. I must have done better than I thought because I ended up in a high intermediate group. We are divided into four person groups according to our Spanish level, and tomorrow our groups will be sent out to our training site where we will work with a language instructor on our Spanish, and work as a group on a small assignment to help the community. I have been assigned to a project in San Bartolome Milpas Altas (a 20 min. bus ride from Santa Lucia) working with a park to develop promotion materials. REMEMBER this is just the project that I will be working on during training in my group of four. I am still a very long way from knowing what my permanent project will be. I haven't taken many pictures yet, and I don't have my connection with me. However, we will be coming back to the training center from our training communities on Mondays, and one of these weeks I will be sure to send quite a few pictures for all of you. Salud!!! Morgan
 
On my way to work this morning my phone rang.  I was still half asleep and considered not answering.  I'm glad I did.  It was the person overseeing my medical file, and she was calling to let me know that they are have almost completed reviewing my medical file, and it appears that I will be medically cleared for a departure date in February.  The only catch is that, as of right now, I will be placed with 'psychological accommodation.'  According to the person from the Peace Corps, this will only eliminate approximately 5 countries from the list of places I could be serving, although she was unable to tell me which countries that included.  
From here, there are two paths that I can take.  The first is to accept the accommodation.  I don't really have too much of a problem with this, except that I truly believe that it isn't necessary.  Much like the treatment plans for headaches and heartburn, this accommodation would be for minor anxiety that I experienced three years ago.  With all of the negative stigma that is already attached to psychological visits, I think that difficulties like these are unfortunate.  They further discourage individuals from seeking a professional opinion when they are facing difficulties that are an inevitable part of life.
The other option I have is to schedule a visit with a licensed psychologist or psychiatrist for a full mental health evaluation.  I had the Peace Corps mail me the paperwork so it will be here if I decide to do this.  The trouble is that the final decision is still up to the Peace Corps' mental health advisor.  There is a chance that I spend the time and money for a second opinion only to have them decide that I will still be placed with accommodation.  I guess that then I would at least truly know where I stand.
I do have time to figure this out while I wait for even more paperwork from the Peace Corps.  Que será, será.
 
Anyone who has known me for the past nine months knows that applying for the Peace Corps has been a large part of my life. Just getting all the paperwork in has been a huge lesson, and a big chunk of time and energy.  The two most frequent questions I get are; 1) Where are you going? and 2) Why? I still don't know where I'm going. That is in the hands of the mystery. Why is a long story, but I have a much better answer for that than I do for where. 

I live in two worlds that, for the most part, don't have a tremendous amount of respect for each other. There are plenty of people who love both art and math, but I have always taken a certain amount of pride in my particular brand of bifurcation. I spent the last four years at the University of Minnesota studying Finance and Corporate Environmental Management. As much as I grouse about the atmosphere there, I really did love it. There is a part of me that really admires the order and productivity of business. Even if I don't always agree with what corporate America is doing, I get energized putting on a suit and giving a presentation, typing e-mails to a group with whom I'm working, and developing excel sheets to solve a financial valuation problem. 


All that is fine and dandy, and plenty of people get really jazzed about business. I would be well on my way up the ladder if I could jump into a pant suit with both feet. The trouble is that another part of me would much rather be running around in a hemp skirt barefoot. Ironically, as I am writing this Michael Franti is singing emphatically about giving the corporation some complications. It's one big complication, and a seriously weak rung in my ladder. I love this side of me equally. I feel deeply connected to the people I have met and connected to while exercising this half of my personality.


There are days that I envy people who walk whole-heartedly in one of these paths or the other. There are times that I wish I could forget about one half of myself or another and submerge myself in business or activism. However, that's only temporary, and I know that I can't be me without being all of me so I'm giving myself in my entirety to bringing these two paths together. It has been done, and it will continue to be done. There are many people who have done this before me, and they have done it on a much larger scale. Still, it is a decision that poses some unique challenges.When I graduated from college I knew that in my first years after college I was going to have to give myself to something 100%. If I started a corporate career, the first few years were going to mean long work weeks that would leave little time for other things. I also knew that if I decided to do that I wasn't likely to jump out of a career half way through. That meant that the time for adventure was right after college. Still, I had to keep the future in mind and my adventures needed to embody both sides of me. The Peace Corps is work that is credible in both worlds. It allows me to do work that I believe in, and it allows me to continue functioning in a business sphere. It's the best of both worlds.


The Peace Corps has an added bonus, and that is the opportunity to learn another culture. I had contemplated studying abroad while I was in college but it was both expensive and lacking. I have a lot of respect for study abroad, but many times American students end up in dorms surrounded by other American students. I have no doubt that while in the Peace Corps, the world will have much more impact in me than I will have in the world. 


Peace,

Morgan
 
Today I had, what I hope to be, my last doctor's appointment.  Last week I got yet another letter from the Peace Corps.  Getting letters is starting to loose some of its excitement.  The letter said that after receiving confirmation of my immunizations the Peace Corps had opened my medical file and found that sections were incomplete or warranted further information.  They needed my psychologist to fill out a section she had missed.  They needed further information on headaches and heartburn I haven't had for over 3 years, and they needed lab reports that I had already given them in my original medical submission.  I have to admit, I was close to tears reading this letter.  I continue to be optimistic and excited about serving, but having to resubmit information is terribly frustrating.  On the upside, this is an excellent opportunity to practice the patience and perseverance that I will undoubtedly need in service.
 
This week I got a letter from the Peace Corps telling me that before they will open my medical file I must be up-to-date on my shots.  That meant getting the second Hep A shot and a polio booster I'm surprised I hadn't already had.  The shots don't sting too badly, but the extra appointment and paperwork sure do.  Oh well, onwards and upwards!
 
I have to say, I am completely flabbergasted. Today I received an e-mail telling me that my online status had been changed and I should go to my Peace Corps toolkit to review the changes. In my application status page was a bullet saying that my dental records have been reviewed and there are no dental holds on my record at that time. They also state that medical records generally lag behind dental records by 2-3 days. That means that I could be medically cleared for service next week! This is much, much sooner than I had expected since I think I mailed my packet just less than a week ago. What are the chances I will be invited to serve in September instead of in February as I had expected? I thought I would be terribly excited, but now that it comes down to it I have mixed feelings. I guess this is a sign for me to sit back, work on myself, and take the path as it comes.
 
After much ado, some sweat and blood, and plenty of tears (I cried on the inside) I have finally mailed my (what seems to be) complete medical history off to the Peace Corps. Now all that is left for me to do is wait. Every step I take makes it that much more real. I have taken every step needed to recieve an invitation to serve, but waiting may prove to be the hardest part of the whole process. Although, even without digging up files, filling out forms, and writing essays, I still have plenty of things on my plate to keep me busy and distracted until the time comes.

That brings me to my next thought about this. If I do get an invitation to serve for the time I was nominated for then this is my last chance to add things to my resume other than the Peace Corps. What I am doing right now will still be on my resume in two or three years when I apply for a career! Yikes. I feel like I should be so much busier than I am.... I take that back. I need to make sure that what I do really counts and that I follow through so that it's an important part of my resume, but there is nothing wrong with taking this last summer as a bit of a child and relaxing, learning, and indulging crazy cravings for art classes and a trip out East.

To all of you applying for the Peace Corps; I wish you the best of luck, and remember to follow your heart and instinct as well as your mind.
 
Well, I have almost completed all of my necessary appointments for my medical clearance. Needless to say, most of the doctors with whom I met were completely and helplessly confused about what I needed. Despite the efforts of the Peace Corps to provide copious amounts of paperwork and instructions, many of the people filling out the forms ended up asking me tons of questions about what I needed. Word for the wise; read the entire form (even the really boring and tiny-print parts) before your appointment. 

The psych evaluation was the first on my list. Not everyone needs to complete this evaluation, but because I had seen a psychologist when my parents got divorced, I needed to go back to the same person for an evaluation. That went fairly well, although my appointment was moved around a couple of times because the office assistants didn't know what type of appointment was best.

Next came a dentists appointment. This one went swimmingly since my dentist and dental hygienist are the parents of my best friend from high school. I highly recommend using family doctors for this process whenever possible.

The optical appointment went similarly to the dentists appointment, but if you have glasses it's best to bring them with you. You will need them for frame measurements, though if they have fitted you for glasses before they will probably be able to get the measurements from your history.

My general physical was the most frustrating part of my application process thus far. Do not just take whatever appointment you are given, especially if you are a student using your school facilities. When I scheduled my physical I explained to the individual scheduling it that I needed more than just an annual since this was for Peace Corps clearance, and I would need additional lab work (this is where reading all the instructions comes in). Despite my efforts they scheduled me for an annual examination with a nurse practitioner. I cannot stress enough; this appointment needs to be made with an M.D. in general medicine! The office assistant the day of my appointment was not at all helpful, but I had a medical assistant that was absolutely wonderful. She re-booked my appointment properly two days after my original appointment (for which I originally waited a month and a half). The only other thing I would suggest is making sure that you bring your vaccination history with you to this appointment, and let them know that you will need a TB test since some places will make you schedule a separate appointment for this instead of just rolling it all up with the lab work. 

At this point, this seems to be dragging on forever. I can see why only a third of applicants are placed, especially if the other two thirds includes the people who just give up on the seemingly endless paperwork. Fortunately, I'm no less excited to serve than when I wrote my first essay. Best of luck to all those who are applying!